Our God is a GREAT BIG GOD

23.06.15 

Let me share about the past couple of days. I noticed a boy today sitting by himself, he was sitting by himself yesterday too. I tried to sit with him and chat with him but it was clear that his English was not good and he almost seemed embarrassed by that. So I just sat in silence with him watching the other boys play. It can be so frustrating not knowing the language and being able to communicate sometimes. 

As the afternoon went on I watched as this boy continued to be on his own a lot, I found out that he is fairly new to the home here and his name is Jason. His dad is not around and so his mum was left to care for him. Her mother got sick and she had to care for her so Jason was left alone a lot and was not able to go to school. His mother then brought him to this home. 

Being new he doesn't know anyone and is probably missing his mum a lot! As well their routine of having prayer times, of reading the Bible, even talking about the God we love and serve would probably be foreign to him. I can't imagine how unsettled he must feel. 

As I was sitting trying to think of what I could do for this precious boy, another boy threw me a football, and we started to throw it back and forth. I included Jason and slowly he got involved in it and even smiled. Then a few of the other boys joined us as well. As we played I was hit with the reminder that God knows and loves each one of these children so much! And even though I don't know each one of them, even if they are new here and feel so far from all they know that God knows each one intimately, he knows their thoughts, their hearts and still loves them. How I wish I could just stop and communicate that to each one! 

We (my mum and I) have had an opportunity to share each night during their prayer time. We have been teaching them a song the words are, 

"Our God is a great big God
Our God is a great big God
Our God is a great big God and He holds us in His hands

He's higher than a skyscraper
He's deeper than a submarine
He's wider than the universe
And beyond my wildest dreams
He's known me and He's loved me
Since before the world began
How wonderful to be a part of God's amazing plan"

So each night we have been explaining more of what exactly we are singing and using the bible to explain it. One night we talked about the idea of God holding us in His hands, of holding us close to His heart. Then we got to share about how great God is (Psalm 95:1-5), that He is greater than any of our dreams and even when things don't go the way we want that to know God is greater. Then tonight we shared about how God knows us and loves us (psalm 139) 

This is something I really wanted to share with Jason but communication hindered this. So tonight as mum shared about God knowing everything about us from psalm 139 and how he knew us before we were born, she singled out a girl and a boy, that boy was Jason. You should have seen His face light up! Then after prayer he came up to us, as they all do, and shook our hands with the BIGGEST smile! Such a different picture from the boy I saw in the afternoon. This is the power of Gods love! So Please join with me in prayer for this precious boy that God's love would become more and more real to him, that he would have a revelation  of how deep, how wide, how high Gods love is for him! 

There are many more in this home that need to know that as well! I am so grateful that God has given us this opportunity to be here and share with them that love, even just for a few days. 

Pray for

- Jason and the children here, that God would reveal to them who He is! 

- that the workers who are here looking after the children would have strength, patience and love, they are few in number and have so much to do

- that God would send the right people here to work matthew 9:

- that God would continue to direct me on how I should spend my time here. I am looking into going to Hyderabad to visit a friend's ministry. 

PRAISE God for

- the opportunity to meet these children, to spend time with them, to share with them God's love 

- safety on the roads with the many trips we have done

- the beautiful Indian Christian people who have welcomed us with open arms 

- the opportunity to bless the children here by buying a few treats for them

Pictures

1. Me and some of the children, Jason is sitting to my left.

2. Me and the youngest girl when we were walking through the village 

3.all the children just before we left

 

Highlights from Victory Children's Home

21/06/15

I have so much to write! So much has happened in the past couple of days. We have moved from the girls home to a children's hostel in a remote village. 

The hostel is for children who's parents can not look after them, or live in a place where they can't get schooling. A lot of them come from homes where the father has left the mother and the mother has to work and is unable to care for them (sadly divorce is becoming more and more common). Most of them come from Hindu homes. So coming to this home is such a great opportunity to share the gospel with them, which they then can take home to their parents when they go home once a year. 

Highlights

- we were greeted with a welcome sign and beautiful garlands

- playing with the children. Again language was limited between us, but it was such a joy to play football, cricket, shuttle cock, catch, duck duck goose and other games with them. I love to just stop and listen to their laughter and delight as they play! 

-  praying for the people at the church Sunday morning. What an honor to lift people up in prayer! I was humbled and challenged by the way so many of them came forward for prayer! Whether it was prayer for healing or a family member or prayer for exams, study or to grow closer to God, so many came forward! How often do we go forward for prayer? Not nearly enough! Well I know I don't. What are we afraid of? I think a lot of it is pride, it's like we have this idea that as Christians we have to have it all together. But we don't, in fact I think it should be the opposite, we are Christians because we realize we don't have it all together. Because we realize our deep need for Jesus Christ to be our Savior!! So we need to show that more! Let's be honest with each other and lift each other up in prayer!! 

- prayer and worship times with the children each evening. It is so great to hear them worshipping in their own language. 

There is so much more I could share but will try to keep this short. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers! 

House of Praise

18.06.16 

Today we visited a girls home we have been to before many times. It is called House of Praise. Again it has changed a lot from what we once knew. There has been a lot of sadness come through this place. Yet it is still as House of Praise! A highlight of being here has been hearing the girls sing joyful songs of praise to God, they have such sweet voices! Hearin them praise God even though they have been through some hard times is such a beautiful thing! 

Last year one of the girls had leukemia and died, she was only 17years old. Then a couple of years ago the Indian man (his name is Sudarshan) who looks after the girls here had a stroke. He could not walk, talk or do anything really. Over the years God has been doing a work in him and he can now walk and is responsive to people talking to him, but is still not able to speak. While he has come such a long way it is still heartbreaking to see him this way. He is such a different man from the one I knew. I don't know I always had a soft spot for him. He was always a chatterbox, with a cheeky sense of humor. It still brings me to tears to see him this way. But the reminder that God is sovereign, that He has allowed this to happen for a reason rings in my ears. And I guess that's what we all have to hold onto in trying circumstances! 

We had an opportunity tonight as a family to share a devotion with the girls. Mum shared about obedience and the importance of being obedient to God as He loves and cares for us and knows what is best. I ran an activity where we got one of the girls to be blind folded and another girl to call out to her and lead her through some obstacles. It was a challenge for them to listen first and then to trust and obey where the girl was leading them. I then shared how we need to do the same with God. And how often in life we can't see what is around the corner, we are blind to what the future holds. But God knows the future and He calls us to do things, He leads certain ways for our best and for His glory! And we can trust and obey Him because He cares so deeply for us! 

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified." Romans 8:28-30

It was a challenge for me to really seek God's voice and to obey wherever He is leading. Oh how great it is that we have a God who talks to each one of us. And how great it is that God can even talk to Sudarshan, and Sudarshan can talk to God. Even though he can't communicate to us, God can see his heart and as he calls out to him, God will guide him, will comfort him! This is evident as he still loves to sing praises to God (although his words are hard to make out). 

I have so loved our time here and while there has been so much sadness here again I am reminded that God is still working. The girls here are growing in to beautiful women and are being taught about God and His love for them. God has them in the palm of His hand and is walking with them. 

PRAY for 

- Sudarshan, for continued healing and revelation to Him of God

- strength, patience and peace for Sudarshans wife and daughter as they love and care for him

- the girls here, that they would all come to know God as their personal Lord and Savior 

PRAISE God for

- time with these precious people who are like family! 

- His sovereignty over all things 

- the many lessons He is teaching me 

Pictures

1.Some of the girls dressed in their uniforms- so sweet 

2. Sudarshan and his wife singing praises together 

3.my family, Sudarshan, His wife and daughter 

4. My family and Saroja (one of the older ladies here) 

Faithful in ALL circumstances!

Yesterday some Indian friends drove us down to a boys home. A lot has changed since we were here last. Unfortunately there have been some disagreements amongst the people who run the orphanages and it is not the same children's home that we once knew. 

Despite that though God is still faithful and is still taking care of His children. And that is so evident in the story we heard of some of the little boys who came around a year ago to this home. When they came they were malnourished and not in a good way. Their father had died and their mother, who was only 23, was left to look after them herself. Having 3 boys she couldn't handle it so they were referred to this home. Looking at these boys now you would have no idea of the life they once had. There is such a deep joy and delight on their faces! They look healthy and are learning so much. 

They know barely any English but I still was able to spend the afternoon playing with them. We played with a ball for ages and then sat down in the dirt and drew pictures with sticks. They tried to explain to me what they were drawing in Kanarese (a local language) and I would try to say it in English. It didn't even seem to matter that we didn't speak the same language. They would laugh at me and I would laugh back at them. We then saw who could throw a rock the furthest and I spun them around until I felt sick with dizziness! But It was so worth it! Oh the sound of their laughter I will never forget! So much joy, so much freedom and innocence, such a different life from a year ago. 

At dinner time we all sat around in a room and they sung some songs before dinner. Again such joy filled the faces of the boys as they sung songs that speak of how great God is! I will try to attach a video, as it is such a delight to see them doing actions and all! 

God is at work here despite some of the politics that are going on with the people who run the home. And that is so encouraging to see. Despite our downfalls and sometimes the conflict that can go on between people, even amongst Christians, God is still so faithful! And He cares deeply for the lowly, the downcast, the poor. He cares deeply for children! 

I think sometimes we need to take a step back and remember this. Sometimes we can get so caught up in the politics of things. Or so caught up in how someone has wronged me. Or maybe we even get so caught up in the huge injustices in the world that we miss the fact that God is at work even in the most dire of circumstances. And He is ALWAYS faithful! 

"All your works shall give thanks to you, O Lord, and all your saints shall bless you! 

They shall speak of the glory of your kingdom and tell of your power, to make known to the children of man your mighty deeds, and the glorious splendor of your kingdom. 

Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and your dominion endures throughout all generations. [The Lord is faithful in all his words and kind in all his works.] 

The Lord upholds all who are falling and raises up all who are bowed down.

The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food in due season. You open your hand; you satisfy the desire of every living thing. 

The Lord is righteous in all his ways and kind in all his works. 

The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. He fulfills the desire of those who fear him; he also hears their cry and saves them. The Lord preserves all who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy. 

My mouth will speak the praise of the Lord, and let all flesh bless his holy name forever and ever." 

Psalm 145:10-21 

PRAY FOR

- the situation in the boys home, that God would bring unity amongst the people. John 17:20-23

- that I would be sensitive to the Spirits leading on how He wants me to use my time here 

- safety on the roads as we travel tomorrow 

PRAISE GOD FOR 

- His faithfulness in doing a work amongst the people of India

- my time at the boys home and the joy I have had in spending time with these precious children! 

Below are 2 pictures of the gorgeous boys I was playing with :) 

Blessed to be a blessing

Firstly let me start of by saying a big thank you to all of you who blessed me immensely before leaving for India! Thank you for the cards, money and kind words! I feel truly blessed by the amazing people God has surround me with in Australia! I have been blessed to be a blessing! 

Well we made it safely to India and are currently in the beautiful OOTY which is over 3000m above sea level. We had a good flight and were met at the airport by Pastor Mark. It was such a joy to be greeted by a smiling familiar face.

Coming out of the airport car park we were then greeted with the familiar sounds of beeping horns and chaotic traffic. There is really nothing like it, and as we drove and saw motorbikes and autos weaving in and out of traffic, as we saw buses overloaded with people, as we saw people in such beautiful, bright colored clothing there was a sense of relief and rest. We are back!! We are in India!! 

We came straight to OOTY where I have enjoyed just walking the streets, going down to the market, being in and with the people of India. Mum, dad and Hope have all enjoyed catching up with people they know from Hebron School from when they were here for 3 years. 

I think God has been teaching me a bit more of being still. I have had a bit of down time. More then I really want and have almost been feeling aggravated that I don't have a whole lot to do. Life before coming here was so chaotic, with all sorts of ministries and college it was rare for me to really get a chance to stop.

“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Psalm‬ ‭46‬:‭10‬

But God has been teaching me to just be still before Him. I have had some time with Him to stop and to know He is God. To stop and draw near to Him and to be filled. I have had time to read the Bible and journal. I have really seen this time as a time when He has been filling me so that I may go and bless others in the future. I am Blessed to be a blessing! 

However in saying that there have still been times of doing things as well. The highlight of the week so far is a kids club I went to. It is run by some of the teachers from Hebron school held in a local Indian house. We had around 18 Indian kids and 5 adults all crammed into the living room, which is the size of my bedroom (not that big). A lady told the story of Zacchaeus and then we did a craft. I connected with these 2 boys and was sitting chatting and coloring in with them. They then sang us these cute songs in Tamil, with actions and everything. 

As we were there I was reminded again that this is what I love to do. To be with the real people of India, especially children. To be sitting with them, talking with them, being on the same level as them (which is hard sometimes because they so often treat white people like they're royalty which makes me feel so uncomfortable)! 

In my conversation with the boys I was struck by how easy it was to chat with them (although at times language was a little frustrating, I wish we could instantly speak another language). They noticed my phone and asked me what kind of phone it was. When I told them an Apple iPhone they were shocked and excited all at the same time. They then offered me 100 rupees ($2.50) to buy it off me haha, I politely refused. But it was a challenge to me, they thought the iPhone was such an amazing thing (which it is) but how often do I take it for granted?! It is just expected that every person owns one, and that you are to keep upgrading even when you old phone still works fine. 

I could tell you more stories and more detail but I should probably bring this to a close. I will try to make my next post shorter :) below are some photos and prayer and praise points. Enjoy! 

Pray FOR

- contentment with being still this week 

- opportunities to speak truth to the people of India of God's love for each one of them

- God to reveal to me more of what He would have me do in the future 

Praise God FOR

- safe arrival 

- meeting an Indian in Malaysia who is from Brisbane, whom we will keep in contact with 

- The provision of money for both me and my family 

- the many people we have been able to reconnect with 

- my time with the boys at kids club 

Lord of my Life!!

Well I have been back in the States for about a week and a half  this time around and thought I better write as this blog is all about the lessons learnt while traveling the world.

I have enjoyed coming back to the big old US of A! It's different this time round as it is each time I travel. I have loved coming back to some of the places I have previously visited, seeing familiar sites and catching up with friends! But what I have loved even more is meeting new friends, new people who have already been such a blessing to my life! It's funny how you can go into a place with expectations of what it's gonna be like, who the people you meet will be, but I love it how time and time again God surprises me by the things I learn and the blessings He pours into my life!

I love God, I love Him with all my heart, mind and soul! But I have not been showing that lately. Before coming to America my life was sooooo busy (with good things like college, work and ministry) but I was not placing God in the number one spot! Don't get me wrong I never disowned Him, or turned my back on Him but my life became so busy that He was not priority, He did not get the place of honor,  the time He deserved as Lord of my life! And I hate that! I hate that I let it get to that! I hate that  I let life get that busy again.

So why did I? How did I? I think filling our lives with things is what we humans do best, I think it's what the devil uses the most to create a wedge between us and God. And it's so easy to keep placing things in our lives that keep us busy and consume us to the point where we don't have time for God, more than that to the point where we don't think we need God, that we think we know best and that only these 'things' will satisfy us. And that is not a path I want to go down.! I have seen people do that, and have seen how empty, hopeless and joyless their lives truly were!

So this trip, this time away from college, work, young life, church, family and friends (all good things), is my wake up call!!! Who is The Lord of my life? Whom do I serve? Who is my number one? The answer to all those questions is GOD! But do my actions show that? Lately no, so this is me saying I am working on that! And am I gonna be able to perfect it and change it by myself? NO!!!! But thankfully the author and perfecter of my faith is continually doing a work in me. And day by day I rest in His unwavering grace! As a result of His son and what He did I am set free and given the ability and strength to have a personal relationship with Him!! How great that is!

"The Son is the radiance of God’s glory and the exact representation of his being, sustaining all things by his powerful word. After he had provided purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty in heaven." Hebrews 1:3

What a great thing! The Son of God who shows all His glory, who is with God, who's is God, came to Earth, paid the penalty for my sin  and now sits enthroned in heaven! How can I not make Him Lord of my life?!?!

So pray for me, as I will each one of you that I would continue to put Him first, place Him in the seat of honor day by day! To truly make Him Lord of my life!!
God bless xxx

'Remain in Me' - Jesus

Was reading John 15 tonight and here is a bit of what God has shown me! 

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit."

I am a branch clinging onto Jesus and its hard!! I feel like I am getting pulled in every direction, feel like things are trying to grab at me, to disconnect me from the vine to make me vulnerable trying to con me into letting go. They do their best to make me the kind of branch that doesn't bear fruit, the kind of branch that doesn't commit to the vine, doesn't get all that it needs from the vine. But I'm connected, And as I bear fruit the gardener prunes me, sometimes it hurts, sometimes it feels like the pruning is too painful to bear, but it is needed, it is for my good, it is so I learn, I grow, I beaf more fruit and give glory to the vine! 

"Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing."

I am nothing without the vine, without the vine I'm a dead branch, bearing nothing, not even bad fruit, I'm dead and lifeless. My dependence is 100% on the vine, on Jesus!  As I struggle here trying to do things on my own, without the vine giving me nutrients and sustenance I fail each and every time!! 

"If anyone does not abide in me he is thrown away like a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned."

Reality hits!! The scary truth!! If I don't dig into the vine more, if I give into the things that are pulling me away from the vine, I won't bear fruit and I'll be cut off and thrown away, more than that I'll be burned. So what is it? Where do I stand? Do I give into the ways of this world? Do I throw in the towel or do I stand and fight with everything I have within me? The choice is mine and the consequences are huge. I cling to the vine standing empty handed and completely surrendered!! 

"It you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be my disciples. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love."

What promises!! What great truths!! As I abide in Him as I stay connected, getting all that I need from Him to bear fruit He is glorified. He loves me, and that is where I am meant to rest, where I can find peace. As I keep His commands as I continue to be His disciple and bear fruit I find rest in His love!! 

"These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.

A picture of a joy that is overflowing, that isn't dependent on the circumstances surrounding it but it is a joy that never ends, it has no limits. And where I stand right now where life is knocking at my door trying to tear that joy away, I stay connected to the vine and that joy is given to me freely! 

 "This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you." 

A challenge for me, for us all! To love like He did does not come naturally. Yet being connected to Him, He gives us the strength to do so! That blows my mind, He showed us that love, that sacrificial love, but then doesn't leave it there, He gives us what we need to show that love to those around us! As a branch I get all

I need from the vine, including the capacity to love in all things. I have been pulling away and how so quickly it comes clear that alone I can't love in that way, so I choose to cling to the vine! 

"You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. "

Nothing I have done has connected me to the vine. The gift of grace given by Jesus has given me life, it is what He has done that has given me life! It is Him and Him alone that makes me able to bear fruit! He has given me all I need and promises me to continue to provide all I need. As a branch by myself I am lifeless, dead, worthless, nothing, but connected to a life giving vine I have all I need! 

"These things I command you, so that you will love one another. "

John 15:1-17 ESV

I feel like my thoughts may be all over but as God has revealed so much to me through this passage I pray He does the same for you! 

Love