Well I thought it was time to start writing again. I guess I'm hoping that by writing, some how, some way I will be able to make sense of some of the things that go through my head. Maybe by putting it all in sentences that can be read, some how, some way I will be able to work it all through.
The past couple of weeks have been crazy in so many ways, most of which arent good. I feel like life has thrown me quite a few curve balls, balls that I wasnt expecting, and I didnt or I still dont quite know how to handle. Some of them I feel like I have had to deal with before, loosing a loved one, dealing with unrequited love, stresses of study, feeling helpless with so many hurting people around me, finding it hard to breathe, lessons I thought I had learnt, messages I thought I had received, yet when faced with all these things again I find myself right back at the beginning. Feeling like I am swimming in deep water with no land in sight, and I'm tired, so very tired! So what to do, where do I turn? I've been here before, yet I feel like I'm right back where I started.
So I do the only thing I know to do and try to move forward. I take it day by day, hour by hour and each morning I wake I thank God for the rest He has given me, that it is a new day and trust that each day will somehow become easier with His help. Life sucks sometimes, things become hard, people change, people hurt you, people leave (whether by choice or whether they leave this earth far too quickly), things happen that are unexplainable, but there is always HOPE.
Hope in the Oxford dictionary is defined as
The past couple of weeks have been crazy in so many ways, most of which arent good. I feel like life has thrown me quite a few curve balls, balls that I wasnt expecting, and I didnt or I still dont quite know how to handle. Some of them I feel like I have had to deal with before, loosing a loved one, dealing with unrequited love, stresses of study, feeling helpless with so many hurting people around me, finding it hard to breathe, lessons I thought I had learnt, messages I thought I had received, yet when faced with all these things again I find myself right back at the beginning. Feeling like I am swimming in deep water with no land in sight, and I'm tired, so very tired! So what to do, where do I turn? I've been here before, yet I feel like I'm right back where I started.
So I do the only thing I know to do and try to move forward. I take it day by day, hour by hour and each morning I wake I thank God for the rest He has given me, that it is a new day and trust that each day will somehow become easier with His help. Life sucks sometimes, things become hard, people change, people hurt you, people leave (whether by choice or whether they leave this earth far too quickly), things happen that are unexplainable, but there is always HOPE.
Hope in the Oxford dictionary is defined as
'a feeling of expectation and desire for a particular thing to happen'
'a feeling of trust'
What it means for me to have hope is that, during times of struggle, of pain and hurt, to look forward, to look forward to God, to look to Him and Him alone. Trusting all that I have, all that I am, into His hands and believing that a brighter day is coming. I have a desire for that particular day, I can't wait for it to come, where there will be no more pain, no more hurt, no confusion. What a brilliant day that will be, but until then I'll take it day by day, hour by hour and with each new day that comes I will have to remind myself of a few things. Truths, promises that God has given me. A lesson I have learned, yet not received. Things I have heard so many times before but as soon as things get tough I let go of so easily. So once again I will remind myself of these, remind myself of how human I am, how weak and insignificant I am yet how great and powerful, how majestic God is! For when I am weak, He is strong. When I fall down, He will pick me up.
I am going to head to bed now, right now I need as much sleep as I can get. But I am gonna first share a verse that has meant a lot to me during this time. Its full of so many great truths, so many promises of how God is with us always, that He will give us the rest we need in HIM. He never leaves us or forsakes us and as I read verses like this over and over I am reminded His great love for me. A lesson learned, yet not always recieved, something I need to remind myself every single day, so I am gonna post this verse, and read it again to remind myself one more time for today!
God bless
Love 'just a girl travelling the world'
Psalm 62
1 Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
2 Truly he is my ROCK and my SALVATION;
he is my FORTRESS, I will never be shaken.
my salvation comes from him.
2 Truly he is my ROCK and my SALVATION;
he is my FORTRESS, I will never be shaken.
3 How long will you assault me?
Would all of you throw me down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
4 Surely they intend to topple me
from my lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse.
Would all of you throw me down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
4 Surely they intend to topple me
from my lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse.
5 Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
my hope comes from him.
6 Truly he is my ROCK and my SALVATION;
he is my FORTRESS, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God[c];
he is my mighty ROCK, my REFUGE.
8 Trust in him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our REFUGE.
my hope comes from him.
6 Truly he is my ROCK and my SALVATION;
he is my FORTRESS, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God[c];
he is my mighty ROCK, my REFUGE.
8 Trust in him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our REFUGE.
9 Surely the lowborn are but a breath,
the highborn are but a lie.
If weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
together they are only a breath.
10 Do not trust in extortion
or put vain hope in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
do not set your heart on them.
the highborn are but a lie.
If weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
together they are only a breath.
10 Do not trust in extortion
or put vain hope in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
do not set your heart on them.
11 One thing God has spoken,
two things I have heard:
“POWER belongs to you, God,
12 and with you, Lord, is unfailing love”;
and, “You reward everyone
according to what they have done.”
two things I have heard:
“POWER belongs to you, God,
12 and with you, Lord, is unfailing love”;
and, “You reward everyone
according to what they have done.”
